Old vs. New

Maybe
Maybe it's not God who has failed me. Maybe it's not God who has been obliterated from my life.

Maybe it's my understanding of who I thought God was that has been destroyed. The understanding. Not God himself. My understanding is not the same. I don't necessarily like what I know now. Who would? It is much much different than before.

Old Belief
There is a God
God is in control of the world
God allows horror in our lives
When He allows horror, God will stay by your side
God may or may not restore that which was taken during the horror
God will show you a reason for the horror
You continue to love, trust, and serve Him because
            He loves you
                     He won’t ever leave you &
                              Together you can get through anything
          
New Belief
There is a God
God is in control of the world
God allows horror in our lives
When He allows horror, God may or may not stay by your side
God may or may not restore that which was taken during the horror
God may or may not show you a reason for the horror
You are expected to love, trust, and serve Him even though
           He doesn’t show His love for you
                    He hides himself from you during your darkest days
                            He allows you to struggle through life alone
                            for long periods of time