Heartbreak

Why
Do we have
To be good
At heartbreak

To stay composed
While feeling pain
And think that
A worthy
Goal

How does

That even
Make sense

Why can’t we

Instead
Be honest
About heartbreak

Why can’t

We say
That heartbreak
Has broken us

That heartbreak

Has altered
Our insides
And left us
Without air

That heartbreak

Is ugly
And that’s why
We look this way

No apologies

For being human
And feeling broken
When hearts break

Just this is what is happening

This is how it feels
And thanks
Very much
For asking

Always In it

Some feel

All of it

Is from God

The good, a blessing

The bad, a lesson

Some feel

None of it

Is from God

Both good

And bad

Simply built

Into the fabric

Of life

Some feel

Good is a sign

Of God’s closeness

And approval

Bad, a sign

Of God’s distance

And disapproval

I feel this

God

Is not the cause

Of any of it

None of it

A sign

Of blessing

Or lesson

But God

Is always

In it

Witnessing it unfold

At times, walking alongside

At times, nowhere to be found

  

Always in it

Always with compassion

But definitely not

The cause 

I Cry

I cry

For beauty

For the richness of life

For hope

I cry

For loss

For the heartbreak of life

For pain

I cry

The same tears

For beauty

And for loss

Humbled

At the depth

Of both

Squish

Why

Do we

Squish

The mystery

Out of life

Suffocating it

With our need

To define

Why

Do we not

Let things breathe

Let things be

And practice breathing

And practice being

While we wait

Permission

Isn’t it something

That we don’t

Need permission

Blessing

Or approval

From anyone

To stand

Before God

Exactly

As we are

And be loved

Need only

To show up

And stand there

Confident

That all the love

We can handle

Is ours

Towards

What

I’m moving

Away from

Is such

A small part

Of my journey

When you

Consider

What I’m moving

Towards

What I’m moving

Towards

Brings life

What I’m moving

Towards

Brings freedom

What I’m moving

Towards

Is being

Who I

Was always

Meant

To be

Reframe

Please do not
Reframe
My pain
Into
Something
Positive

My pain

Is not positive

It’s painful

And it doesn’t ask

To be
Reframed

Only
To be 
Acknowledged