A Good Name

Call me prideful
But reputation
A good name
Matters to me

I really miss

Being known as

A solid couple

Strong in adversity
Happy in spite of pain
Stable

Instead of

A shattered couple

Buried under adversity
In pain in the midst of pain
Unstable

Actually I really miss

Being those things
More so than having people think
We were
Those things

Maybe we are

Still pieces of those things
But it doesn’t feel good
Anymore

It was so easy before

Just part of who we were
No effort needed
Authentic

You don’t get back

That solid couple reputation
After stuff like this happens
Not like before

Nice couple but did you hear….

Good people but remember when…

That is

Really hard
For me

Probably no one remembers

Or cares
But I remember
And care

Makes me wish

Everybody’s worst moments
Were so public

And thoughts like that

Wishing everybody
A fair share of public humiliation
So I won’t be the only one

Are really kind of mean

 

Just another
Pleasant byproduct  
Of a year
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