Quiet

Has quiet
Always been
Such a battle
 
For me
This year
It is

What am

I even battling
Against

Maybe it’s this season

Of excess
Shining a light on
My lack

Maybe I was content once

With simple things
But this season
Tempts me
To want more

Maybe I can’t

Fit my
Complicated life
Into the template of
This happy season

Maybe the unknown

Stares me down
Every day
And I don’t
Know how
To welcome that

Maybe I associate peace with  

A mostly good life
And life isn’t mostly good yet
So how can there be peace

Maybe it’s a battle
No matter what life is
To find quiet
To feel peace
To be still
And stay
Still
And hear God

Maybe quiet

Is always a battle
But I just notice it more
This year