Expectations

I forgot
How this works

I forgot that

The only way
To find peace

The only way

To make the pain
Stand down
When it kicks up again

Is to have no 

Expectations

Of him

Of the situation

It’s the expectations

That lead to disappointment

And he is in no frame of mind

To meet expectations

So for now

I will think only of  
The expectations
I have
Of me

And they are

To be kind
To be resourceful
To be patient
And when I’m not feeling patient
To shut up

To remember that

He is mostly broken still
With small pieces of wholeness

Instead of mostly whole

With small pieces of brokenness

There are so many ways

My expectations
Go unmet

But the question

For me is
Can I meet
My own expectations