Reject

I reject you
Simple faith
For saying all suffering
Ends with acceptance
Ends happy
Ends at all

For saying God

Is only in
The type of suffering
That’s resolved quickly
And with grace

For saying  

If you show
How painful
Pain is
You fail

I reject you

When I find you
In churches

I reject you

When I find you
In people

I reject you

When I find
Traces of you
Still in me

I reject you

For failing me

I reject you

For not acknowledging
My difficult reality

I reject you
For erasing my experience
For erasing me
And smiling while you do it

I reject you

For making me feel unwelcome
Unworthy
Guilty for my pain
 
I reject you
So completely

Which frees up

The space in me
I need
 
To figure out
What kind of faith  
I will accept