Either Or

I wonder if I
Will ever learn
How to stop
Living either or

Start
Living and

I am competent and I make mistakes
I am brave and I am also afraid
I am confident and I also doubt myself
I am peaceful and I am disappointed
I love people and I love solitude
I am disciplined and I also wonder aimless

I wonder if

I will ever
Truly
Believe

That my mistakes

Don't make me unworthy
My fears don't make me useless
My need for quiet does not make me weak

That I

Am not
One thing at a time
 
I am
Many things
All the time
 
All of us
All the time
Not one thing or the other
But more