If I Could Scream

If I could scream
The truths
Of my life
Right now

I would tell you
So many things

 

I would scream

Addiction is about

To take down

My family

 

I would scream

Mental illness

Is hot on our heels again

And this time

I'm not sure

I can withstand

What it brings

 

I would scream
This life
Is not working
For me

I would scream

Screamy sounds

At the top of my lungs

 

But I don’t scream
Because no one screams
 
Because for some
Ridiculous reason
We all
Suffer in silence

Instead I smile
And do my job
Well
 

Instead I take deep breathes

And small steps forward
When I can
 

Instead I scream

So loud
On the inside
Please no more pain
Please not again

I scream

Life’s truths

As I scream

No more

And I brace

For what
Is next