A Hard Balance

It’s a hard balance
Deciding how much
Or how little now
To help him

Letting him be

Who he wants to be
Even if that means
He wants
To be no one
To do nothing

A hard balance
Living my life
Not stopping to ask
Him to come along

A hard balance living

Without asking him
To live

A hard balance living

With him but
Without his company

I’m just being polite really

Feels rude

Not to ask him
To come along
To live

But it gets old

To ask and have
The invitations
Ignored

It gets old

To keep asking

It gets old

To keep balancing
Us both