Steps

So many steps
To some kind of
Healing
To some measure of
Wholeness

Step 1

See how long
You can keep
Your thoughts clear

Step 2

As thoughts clear
Find the balance
Between normal sadness and
Suicidal sadness

Step 3

With thoughts clear
And sadness managed
Grieve the loss
Of vision
Of the old life
Of how easy things were
 
Step 4
With thoughts clear
And sadness managed
And loss grieved
Find your way back
To yourself

Four steps

But the step
Between three
And four
Must be
Made up
Of a million
Tiny steps
I can’t see

Four steps

Taking forever

Four steps

And stuck

Four steps
But that last one
Is a doozey