A Deep Down Fear

A deep down fear

What if

What they think
Of me
Is true

What if

I really am

A bit dull

Too literal
A slow thinker
Too sensitive
Too weak

Too trusting

Of people

Too vulnerable

For this world

What if

All that
Is true

What if

This is actually
Who I am

What if

I’ll never be
Much more
Than I am
Today

What if
This is
Not only me

But the me

I’m meant
To be

Making all

My past attempts
To become something
Different

Nothing more

Than so much time
Wasted