Partner

I need a partner
Who sees the beauty in life
Who has an opinion  
Who isn’t ashamed of his brokenness
And brings his whole self to the world

I need a partner

Who is thankful for what little he has
Who has dreams and cares to know mine
Who shares in daily life, takes pride in his home
And keeps it in order
        
I need a partner
Who has hobbies and interests
Who invests in friendships
Who shares responsibility for finances

I need partner

Who is hopeful about the future
Who sincerely cares about other people
Who wants to be alive

I don’t have that

And I don’t quite

Know what to do
With what
I have

The partner I have

I don’t need

I have a partner
Who is dragged through life attached to other people’s lives, plans and goals
Who waits for others to tell him what’s planned for the day
Who has been waiting for years for life to come to him
Who never asks about finances, has no interest in how bills gets paid
Who by not choosing, has chosen to give up
Who has quietly given away all his power

I have a partner

Who is alive
But doesn’t
Want to live