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Any magic
In my house
Is there
Because
I bring it
Nothing done
That I don’t do
No plans made
That I don’t make
Nothing dreamed
That I don’t dream
No magic other
Than what
I bring
No magic
Lives here
Just a tired
Magic maker
Sometimes
I wonder
Why I don’t yell
To be heard
Why yelling
Even when called for
Has never
Come naturally
To me
Maybe because
The times
I most
Want to yell
Are the times
I need my world
Most quiet
Maybe because
In the quiet
I hear me
Maybe because
When I yell
Others hear me fine
But I don’t hear me
At all
Maybe because
When I yell
I drown out
My own voice
Miss
Important things
I need
To tell myself
Miss hearing
My own pain
Honoring what’s been damaged
Discerning next steps
Miss so much
Because I’m giving
My voice
To someone else
Who has taken
So much
Already
I
need a partner
Who
sees the beauty in life
Who
has an opinion
Who
isn’t ashamed of his brokenness
And
brings his whole self to the world
I
need a partner
Who
is thankful for what little he has
Who
has dreams and cares to know mine
Who
shares in daily life, takes pride in his home
And
keeps it in order
I
need a partner
Who
has hobbies and interests
Who
invests in friendships
Who
shares responsibility for finances
I need partner
Who
is hopeful about the future
Who
sincerely cares about other people
Who
wants to be alive
I
don’t have that
And
I don’t quite
Know
what to do
With
what
I
have
The
partner I have
I
don’t need
I
have a partner
Who
is dragged through life attached to other people’s lives, plans and goals
Who
waits for others to tell him what’s planned for the day
Who
has been waiting for years for life to come to him
Who
never asks about finances, has no interest in how bills gets paid
Who
by not choosing, has chosen to give up
Who
has quietly given away all his power
I
have a partner
Who
is alive
But
doesn’t
Want
to live
I’m
sure
I
could find
Someone
new
To
tell me I’m pretty
Take
me to dinner
Share
with me his money
Go
with me here or there
Company
Like
that
Doesn’t
seem
Hard
to find
But
I’m not sure
I
could find
Another
companion
I’m
not sure
How
many of those
You
get
In
a lifetime
And
without
A
companion
I’m
not sure
That
the rest of it
Matters
Being ignored
To me is worse
Than being insulted
Because insult
At least acknowledges
Presence
But being looked past
Looked through
Made to feel invisible
Denies presence
Denies that existence
Is important enough even
For insult
Life is like
A party
You set off to
With highest
Expectations
That the food
Will be gourmet
The conversation inspiring
And the music dance worthy
But when
You get there
You find
The food is just Ok
The conversation stilted
The music uninspired
It is what it is
And you are who you are
Standing there
In the middle of it
And right then
You decide
To fill your plate full
Say your hellos
And get out on the dance floor
Anyway