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Monday, September 29, 2014

Must

Must
All people
Who strive
To be holy
Praise God
During their pain

And is there
A place for them
If they don’t

If they instead
Rage at the pain
Stomp their feet in protest
Cry out in agony

Because it hurts
And they are human

What about
All those people

What should they do

And if
There is not
A place for them
At church

Where
Is it
That they
Should go

How Quickly

How quickly
Life goes
From happy
To sad

From courage
To cower

From life
Is great 
To what
The hell
Just happened

How painful
Pain is

How frightening
The unknown

How amazing
That this
Is life

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Please

Please
Stop making
My messy story
Pretty

Please let
My mess
Stand on
Its own

Please 
Acknowledge
The reality
Of my story

Please
Stop creating
Your version
Of my story

Please stop
Twisting my pain
Into a testimony
To give it
Worth

It’s worthy
All by itself

Unwrapped
Unresolved
Unexplained

Please admit
That so much unknown
Scares you

Please admit
That it doesn’t fit
What you believe

Please
Let yourself see
My reality

Please
Take what you see
And learn from it

And if you
Aren’t willing
To do
These things

Then please
Just go
Away

Spiritual Home

I wonder
What I
Am now

I wonder
Where I
Fit

I wonder
If me
Just being me
Is enough

Denomination-less

Without affiliation

On a long
Spiritual journey

That doesn’t end
With me finding
A spiritual home
Here on earth

My spiritual home now
Isn’t a place

It’s something
I see glimpses of
When I find
Things in common
With people I meet
 
Something I touch
The edge of it 
Anytime
I am reminded
That we are
All the same

In need of the same grace

Craving the same
True acceptance

Of who
We really are

Not a place
But a peacefulness
Of soul

An open part of me
I can bring
Wherever I go

To add warmth
To a world
That is cold

And receive warmth
From God
Through the world
In return

Judged

It hurts
To be
Judged

Hurts to know
I have not
Lived up
To standards
Set for me
By someone
Who is weighing
My worth

I could do
Without the
Judgment

Could do
With just
Being heard

Could do with
A conversation
Or twenty
That has
As its goal
Understanding

Could do with
Acknowledgement
That the questions
Are good
On both sides

You
Hearing me

Me
Hearing you

Just might
Make our
Difference
Of opinion

Something
To be
Learned from
Instead of
Feared

Monday, September 15, 2014

Ball

I want
To curl up
In a ball

And then
Roll far
Away

And keep rolling
Until I land
Somewhere
Safe
Enough

To uncurl
Slowly
And breathe

 

 

 

Empty

A little empty
Today

A little raw
A little tired
A little scared
A little weak

A little less
Than me
Right now

A casualty
Of this
Time of year

Someday
I may
Get used
To it

Anticipate it
Own it
Embrace it

But not
Quite
Yet

For now
I will simply
Endure it

And watch it
Come and go
With the season

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

What Falls

Life
Is not
Within
My control

It does
What it will
When it wills

Drops
Bombs and
Blessings
In the middle
Of my path

Both
Requiring
Some sort of
Response

And that’s
What is
Within
My control

Not what drops
From the sky
Into my life

Only
My response
To what falls

Monday, September 1, 2014

Seasons

How can
There be
So many
Seasons
Of life

Seasons of barely
Being able
To breathe

Seasons
Of inhaling
Abundance
Deeply

Seasons of barely
Being able
To walk

Seasons of
Sprinting
Effortlessly
Along

How can
There be
So much hurt
And so much beauty

How can
There be
So much heaviness
And so much light

How can
Life be
So empty
And so full

How can
This all be
One life

How can we
Best live
Through the changes

And change
With the seasons

And keep moving
Towards what
Makes us whole