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Monday, June 30, 2014

This Question

I think
Every Christian
Should be asked
This question

Other than that
Which involves
You judging
Other people's
Behavior

What
Are the things 
You believe
About God

I think the question
Should be asked

And I think
The answers
Would be revealing

And the silence
Would be deafening

Relieved

She
Stands
Alone
In deep pain

Christians swarm
Surrounding 
Doing everything they can
To organize the pain
To force the pain to bear fruit
Minimizing the pain
So it can be accepted
And made into
A testimony

And when that doesn’t go well

When the pain won’t budge

And fruit can’t be born of it

They wipe the dust off their feet
And walk away

And she is left
Standing alone again
In deep pain still
But relieved

Martyrs

We love our martyrs
Who die
And leave lives
That bring glory
To God

We also love our martyrs
Who live
And say
Through this suffering
God be praised

But what to do
With the other martyrs

Who are alive
But wish they weren't

Who don't
Praise God for the pain
Though they
Think they should
And others
Are just waiting
For them to do so

Or who do praise God
For the pain
But don’t
Feel praise
In their souls

Half dead martyrs
Living half dead lives

Who struggle
To reconcile
Pain with God
 
Because the pain in their souls
Doesn’t fit
With the God in their hearts

And the pain
Hasn’t killed them or
Made them more holy
 
And no one
Wants to hear about it
Until it does

Monday, June 23, 2014

Melancholy

Melancholy
Today

Slowed down
Softened
Aware
Maybe too aware
Of the deep

But today
Also aware
Of God’s love

Which maybe
I feel most easily

On slowed down
Melancholy
Days

Get Them Back

A desire to pray

A way to pray
Only what I mean
Only what I believe
And nothing more

A pure trust
In God
That comes
From my heart

Strong belief
In a just a few certainties
In the middle of the unknown

I used to have these things

Then I lost them

And lately I wonder

If I will ever

Get them back

My Storms

I admire
Those who say
They hold tighter
To God
During life’s storms

But really
During some storms
Holding on
Is not
Possible

During some storms
The winds
Are so strong
No grip
Can be held

During some storms
Hands holding on
Are severed
And people
Are catapulted
With no control
Through the core

So though some
Can speak of
Holding tight to God
And finding meaning
In passing
Life’s tests
With honor

My storms
Aren’t like that

My storms
Leave me broken

My storms
Leave me with nothing
To offer
To God
Or Humanity

My storms
Don’t earn me
Passing marks
For life’s tests
 
My storms
Remind me
That as nice
As it is
To think I
Can hold on
To God
 
Most times
If there
Is any
Holding on
Going on

It can only
Be God
Holding on
To me

Monday, June 16, 2014

Happier

Maybe
I should
Be happier

Because he is making
Great strides

Because he is getting
Things done

Because he is showing up more
For his life

For our life

Maybe
I should
Be happier

But really
I’m just tired
From holding it all
For so long

Really
I’m just waiting
To see how this goes

To see if it will continue

And to figure out
What to do
If it doesn’t

Peace

It seems
We are all
In common pursuit
Of peace

But does anyone
Really find it

Or are we all
Just moving together
Closer to it

Helping each other
Face the right direction

Honing in
On happiness

At the very least always
Making a point
To walk towards it
And not away

Acknowledging
The debris
Along the way
To where we want to be

Looking for
Happiness

Looking for
A permanent place
Of peace

But never
On this Earth
Quite finding it

Reset

There are
A few things
That clear
My mind

Reset
My thoughts

Help me
Wipe the slate clean
And start fresh

They are
A good thunderstorm
A powerful song
A satisfying meal
Anything funny
Sunshine shining down
Deep connection
A good workout

All these things
Make me pause

Fix me
For a time

Shake up my routine

Give me rest and
Make me strong

Reset me
To start again
Tomorrow

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Sometimes

Sometimes
I just
Miss God

The old God

The God
I had
Made up
In my mind

The one
Who stayed
Within the lines

The one
Who played
By the rules
I came up with

The one
Who lived
Within my realm
Of understanding

This new God
Is a bit more
Unpredictable

At times
Disappointing

Not concerned with
Resolution
 
Silent
When I’d like
Some noise

A different God
A deeper God
A God most definitely
Beyond my understanding

Idea

Everywhere
I look
I see
The result
Of someone’s dream

Restaurant grand openings
Businesses breaking ground
Even things
As obvious
As paved roads
And the different 
Shapes of cars

Someone
Thought
These things
Up

Someone
Had an idea
 
Someone
Had room in their life
To think
To dream
And make that dream
A reality

I wonder
If their lives
Were going well
When they thought
Of such things

I wonder more
If the ideas sparked
When they were defeated
At wits end
About to give up

I guess
I just wonder
What it takes
To have a dream
Then turn that dream
Into a reality

Unknown

We can’t make
Our unknowns
Known

It’s just not
Within
Our power

We can’t
Guide others
Through their
Unknowns either
Because each path
Is unique
 
But we can surely

Be in the middle
Of different
Unknowns
Together

Walk beside each other
On a common road
With different
Destinations
 
Keep company

Keep faith

Keep walking
 
Keep trying

Not to be afraid
Of what it is
We can’t know

Monday, June 2, 2014

Position

I am not
Concerned
With anyone’s
Official
Religious or
Political
Position on
Anything

I really
Just
Don’t
Care

I’d much
Rather see
How what
People believe
Is lived out

How do we live
What we so strongly
Believe

Do we love people equally and let them love us
Do we love pretty in this messy world
Do we love with no conditions
Do we love at all

Just seems
Like such
A waste of time  
All the energy spent
Taking a stand

With no mention
Of how that stand
Translates
Into
How we will live and
How much we will love

Imperfect

We aren’t born
With perfect
Bodies

Why then
Would we be born
With perfect
Minds

We are
Imperfect and broken
Outside and in

Our whole
Entire
Lives

It’s amazing then
A miracle of sorts
That somehow
We still find in life
Moments
Brief flashes of
Perfection and wholeness
Anyway